Ben's benefit and my moving forward

The benefit went so awesome I could even believe it. Raising over 1600 dollars from donated goods ( thank you so much sponsers) and having so much fun with so many people i haven't seen in such a long time. I do feel a bit more complete and accepting of Bens passing. I does get to me at many points of my day, but for some reason the good times I had really has helped me move forward. I am now focused on two things thesis, and job hunt. Cool thing is that Lisa Pritchard (bens mom) has been helping me find a job and forwarded my resume to a few people that seem to think I have real potential to get scooped up by a company. Although my location is still not set in stone, I still have a yearning for the west coast, particularly LA or San Fran. But getting there will be tough for sure. I may have to remain in Rochester and gain a little more experience before. In the meantime, I have things like my proteomics research to focus on in and getting a paper published. Hopefully the ball can start rolling soon on that.

Iphone

Yup I got one. Why? I have no idea. But its been great to me so far. In addition it seems as if job offers have been rolling in for chemist positions. Pretty exciting for me at least. Also getting ready for the Benefit at Lux this weekend for Ben. This will be a tough couple days but in the end it will be awesome. Currently i do still have to get my thesis rolling and get my job offers rolling in. I think many sleepless night lie ahead for me.

Its funny

There are so many ambitions in my mind. So many goals, and yet they seem so unobtainable. I want things to be simple again like they used to be. Come home, eat ramen, talk about whatever, play majong, who knows. I just want that back.

So its been one month

Since Ben passed away. At times I feel as if its all going to be better, then at others I wish with all my heart he was next to me so I could tell him everything that has happened in the time that has passed. I originally thought I would have to go on this journey alone, but I realized how many people have supported me in this ordeal. I really am grateful and thankful for those people who I was and still am able to turn to. If it were for you I probably would have had a much more difficult time. I think it was Bens gift to unite me with people like this.

Seems like I should start a blog!

Yup, I think keeping documentation of my life will be interesting.